She was never allowed to truly be herself in society; only a handful accepted it as it was. This is demonstrated in the poems he wrote; over the course of her life she became the author of approximately 1,800 poems (Crumbley). Not all were published in his lifetime, but all reflected the inner workings of the mind. At first she was optimistic about the world and how "hope" affected the people around her; later in life, Dickinson used the same style she used in "Hope Is The Thing With Feathers" in "Hope Is A Subtle Glutton" to express how much her views on "hope" had changed. There was a twenty year difference between the two poems and not only did she survive the devastation caused by the Civil War (A Timeline of Emily Dickinson's Life | Emily Dickinson Museum), but she had begun to suffer from Bright Disease (Crumbley). This disease takes months or even years to kill someone, and all the while that person suffers terrible pain. Some characteristic features of the disease include severe inflammation, swelling, kidney failure, increased blood pressure, and severe back pain ("Bright Disease"). Today this disease is quite simple to treat and cure, but in the 1800s it was an extremely painful way to die; with everything that happened throughout her life it's understandable why Dickinson felt this way. In "Hope is a subtle sweet tooth"